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Many times we become what we feel we are. I have been trapped inside a bubble of agoraphobia, generalized anxiety and panic disorder. That’s who I’ve become, that’s my internal identity, which I’ve had a harder time hiding from those around me. The sleeping child within is slowly awakening.
Let me explain.
I have been without a car during the day for almost a year and I didn’t realize how much it was affecting me until recently… as the sky opened up, the sun began to shine longer each day, birds chirping early in the morning and again at dusk, people everywhere enjoying their time outdoors, going on vacations while I’ve been basically wasting away inside my home until my car returned home around 5 pm.
But, I didn’t care or even notice the time I was wasting
Over the past year most of my time has been spent going back and forth to Doctors because my husband has been ill. It took almost a year to receive a proper diagnosis and it appears for the time being he’s doing better because they were finally able to pinpoint his medical issue- heart failure and treat it with the medications that seem to be helping a lot right now. Did I mention we’ve been without a second vehicle since last October?
