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My husband sent a video to me in a private message last year and I thought I would share it. I thought I was doing a great job at hiding my stress from him, I thought I was able to hide my anxiety and depression. He observes much more than I’m aware of.
You see, when people have anxiety they don’t want to bring attention to themselves. I think in part, my stress has been work related and I thought I was doing a good job at covering it up. I also have insomnia and tend to sleep later into the morning. Sleeping in and not going to bed when my husband does causes me a lot of guilt, I’ve shared my feelings of guilt with him as he quietly listens.
When you suffer from Anxiety Disorder, the mind is always trying to reason with why you must be suffering and most of the time there isn’t one particular reason because Anxiety Disorder is an illness
My husband depends on me to run a lot behind the scenes. I don’t get paid to be the Assistant Admin of the Company. I do what I do for him out of love. However, I handle the finances and I suck at it. I get it done but I procrastinate and feel resentful. I know he realizes this, but we don’t talk about it much so I hold a lot in (or so I think I do). Many times we front the money for jobs and he doesn’t send an…
