I can relate to some of what you wrote. Oddly, I’ve never seen my chart from my Doctor (the notes, years of notes) or my counselors. I’ve been through a few counselors over the years because I felt they were too generic or didn’t understand the seriousness of what was and still is going on with me. How many of us fall through the cracks?

I wish I could say I will be fine (there are times I do feel that way, until the next wave arrives and I have no clue how long that wave will last), but it’s a constant and I think many of us get tired of hiding behind the facade others expect from us. At what point does the brain just say, enough? I fear that after learning of Robin Williams and Anthony Bourdain’s suicides… who would have thought, right? I hope those of us that suffer with little help never get to that point.